We are a generation of insatiable consumers. Everywhere we go there are advertisements working overtime on our human desires in order to get us to buy something we probably don’t need. Commercials take up a third of our show’s airtime, and companies who have money to spend (like Apple and Pepsi) advertise their products right inside the shows we watch. We are not only consumers of products, we are consumers of entertainment. This is probably the worst form of consumption because it comes across so sparkly and harmless (most of the time). The problem is, when we are constantly needing to be entertained, we lose ourselves in things outside of ourselves. This is exactly what addiction is, and it comes in the form of many faces. Some addictions drag you through the mud and rip your life apart, but many addictions are subtly and slowly removing you from yourself. So what’s the problem you ask? I don’t know – perhaps I think too much about the day I die and having regrets about things I didn’t do while I was alive (because I was too busy trying to fill up the empty spaces by consuming, instead of enjoying the precious moments of my life).
Lucky me – I know a lot of people who simply enjoy their lives, who are not the mainstream type of consumers. This is refreshing. I’ve been on both sides of the equation, and I still love my shows – they make them so funny now that it’s difficult not to watch them. Not that watching shows are bad, but it’s how much time many of us spend zoning out in front of the television, or with anything that takes us away from ourselves. I enjoy good writing, and I watch shows and films with good writing because it is inspiring to me – not just entertaining. I read books that inspire my craft. I enjoy beautiful artwork because it lifts my spirits. Not that I am immune to zoning out in front of the TV. I do that too.
Consumption is not a direction in life, however. It’s a filler. If you have direction and you know where you are headed, I would say that a little TV is probably ok, but like anything in life, there has to be a balance. If you’re finding yourself unhappy when you don’t have people, places and things keeping you distracted from yourself, then it may be time to take a step back and re-evaluate your life. What do you want out of your life? Where do you want to go? Where do you see yourself five years from now? What are you missing out on because you have lost touch with yourself? If you continue doing what you are doing, where are you headed? If what you are consuming isn’t inspiring or assisting you toward your dreams or goals, then it probably isn’t worth your time.
I know what restlessness feels like and how disturbing it can be when you are left alone with yourself with nothing to do but spin your wheels. It’s a terrible feeling – I KNOW, but it’s often a good place to be because without anything to relieve your restlessness, you can discover a lot about yourself. What is your ingenious brain telling you to do while your feeling restless? What does it desire? What is it begging for? What does it crave? When I am feeling restless, I find out (really fast) what distractions are calling out to me, and it can be a brutal space to hang out in, but once I get past the squawking parrot in my head (the consumer), everything becomes incredibly settled and calm. I realize all of that squawking was nonsense. I don’t DIE, or end up disappearing when I don’t feed into the restlessness. In fact, I become much more aware of myself, and of the deepest part of myself that longs for space to simply feel alive, rather than feeling numbed out all the time. Even feeling emotional raw these days has such an advantage over feeling nothing, because at least I know I’m ALIVE.
I used to be bored all of the time. I can tell you after three and a half years of sobriety and in knowing which direction I am headed in my life, I have not experienced boredom in most of those three-point-five years. I can’t even imagine being bored anymore – even if I am just sitting on a couch staring at a wall. I am not bored because I know who I am, where I am going, how amazing silence can be, and I am truly happy. Life is not always a cake walk, but I am truly happy, even during off-days. This is because I stopped filling the void and finally allowed to void to be. I write about this a lot, but the void was simply my Self, desiring me to come home. Once I entered into the void, I found out that I was everything I ever needed. I recommend this course of action. It is much better than living a life trying to keep that void filled. You can never fill that void because (again) it isn’t a void at all.
Though many people are quite satisfied in their lives by simply living a day to day routine and enjoying the moments as they come, some of us have dreams and ultimate desires for ourselves. If you’re one of those people, then take action toward your goals. Make a bucket list and go for it. Ask yourself if what you are doing throughout the course of the day is creating steps toward your goals, or taking you away from your goals. I used to get caught in this trap of thinking that it was going to take me WAY too long to get where I wanted to go, and also, I was not up for the work that was required of me. I suppose recovery has taught me something valuable. Once you step toward a goal, and place your energy toward that goal, the momentum toward that goal picks up exponentially, and the spiritual, emotional and mental growth during the process is what will give you strength to continue on. Once you get on the path, and you’re serious about the path toward your goals, the whole universe will conspire for you to reach those goals (haven’t you read ‘The Alchemist’ by Paulo Coelho? Well, you should if you haven’t). It’s certainly not as daunting as you’re probably making it in your head. Even after several years of writing books and not finding a Literary Agent or a major publisher to represent me (one of my goals), I am still going strong. If it takes me another decade to get where I want to go, I’m not giving up. I’m going to continue writing. I will only grow better as a writer and learn more about myself, and life, in the meantime. The path toward getting there has been that incredibly fulfilling to me. And if I never reached my goals, I would not consider myself a failure, because at least I tried. A failure is someone who gives up on themselves before they even try.
I have been blogging a lot for the last year, but some things have shifted in my life that require me to place my focus on completing the manuscripts I’ve started. I write mostly in the morning because it’s the quietest time of day. I decided to blog about once a week, and to fill the remainder of the mornings, writing my manuscripts. For those of you who read my blogs everyday, don’t think I have given up. On the contrary. I have written a lot on this blog and I feel incredibly satisfied with LushNoLonger. I will continue blogging, just not as often.
In the meantime, I have a promotion going on from now through the end of October (2014). If you download a copy of ‘Majestic Wonderbread – Earthbound and Seeking Hidden Treasure,’ http://www.amazon.com/MAJESTIC-WONDERBREAD-Earthbound-Seeking-Treasure-ebook/dp/B00DGZPXPI/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1413208837&sr=8-2&keywords=majestic+wonderbread
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If you need more inspiration to follow your own goals, here is a link to ‘The Alchemist’ by Paulo Coelho (I highly recommend this book): http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_ss_c_0_13?url=search-alias%3Dstripbooks&field-keywords=the%20alchemist&sprefix=the+alchemist%2Caps%2C466