As summer kicks off and my life turns into a new direction (one that I couldn’t have predicted even a few weeks ago), my first instinct is to be excited, but my own body revolts in quiet disagreement. It knows from experience that change is not as easy as my free-spirited self makes it seem. Just last year I made one of the biggest changes of my life. Everything that I desired was delivered to me into one dynamic package, and it was mind-blowing, but the actual change was overwhelming. It took a few months to settle and depression was hanging out with me trying to grip me into its mighty claws. I didn’t succumb, but it was all very unsettling in the beginning. After a few months, life calmed down a bit and once the routine was simplified, there was harmony.
I dreamed last night of two fabulous and massive butterflies. One was a brilliant monarch who kept coming back into my space to enlighten me with her beauty. Her colors were marvelous and she made me feel alive. Then there was another type of butterfly that looked more like a fairy. She had what appeared to be crimson petals for wings. They folded easily with the wind and below her body was a lavish extension of her wings. They floated behind her and touched every leaf she passed as she fluttered through the trees. I wondered if she was going to be caught up in the branches of the mighty tree, but she floated on without being held back by anything, even the leaves that seemed to entangle her as she moved through them gracefully. Of course upon my awakening, I knew these two butterflies represented me. Transformation. Change. Moving through life gracefully. Illumination. Carefreeness. Life on life’s terms. The crimson wings represent being passionate. I’m not getting snagged into the moments as I move along and follow my intuition.
There are so many ways we move through life, and I do not think that any certain way we choose is right or wrong, but I do know that the way we choose to think while we navigate through life, determines the experience we will have. As I embark on a new experience with my daughter, and include my son in what I desire for him as well, I have to ask myself what it is that I so deeply yearned for, and how I’m going to use this extra money which is suddenly coming to fruition? How can I use my creativity in this experience, and what are my long term goals? In the past, I would have dwindled the extra money away on clothes and conveniences, but now that I’m more mature, my thinking is that I need to invest it into something. Debts will be paid, a vacation will be taken, but there has also got to be an investment of some sort, and because my daughter is a natural business woman, I have the chance to teach her something that will benefit her for the rest of her life by thinking outside the box of our smaller living space. I trust that this is a perfect opportunity to explore a home based business. We will work together and create an income. We will build a harmonious life together and no one will be there hovering over us when our dishes aren’t put away, or complaining about the cat who is licking himself and shedding on the bed. We will be like two butterflies, free to move about our world and open to experiencing all that life has to offer us. How can I not be excited? We have just entered the land of opportunity.
There is great fear about things that I have no control over right now, and some things are happening a little too fast. My body wants to panic, but my experienced soul tells it that everything will be ok – which is exactly how it has been so far. Everything’s ok. When you reach for your dreams, and focus on your well-being, all the little details that we often get hung up on, seem to work themselves out. I’m choosing not to get tangled into the branches right now. I’m moving through the leaves as they rustle all around my body, and floating along with this dynamic wind that is taking me above and beyond what my mind can fully comprehend at this moment. The winds of change are a-blowin’ and I’m going with them. I am so grateful today, and excited about where I’m being lovingly carried.